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[HIDDEN FROM MEGHAN! Visible by Meghan's friends family]

HEY!

I'm planning a surprise Mother's Day brunch for Meghan. My sisters are cooking a HUGE breakfast with egg/bacon/sausage casserole and blueberry pancakes and the whole 9 yards. We've got decorations and anyone that would like to stop by we'd love to have you. Gonna be ready around 9:30 but you can stop by whenever. There will be LOTS of food!

[Private to Seth]

Hey man.

I got Meghan this:



(Says Kandy and Jon with a Ruby and Aquamarine respectively)

There are ruby earrings, Kandy's birthstone, that match if you want me to point you in their direction. Or if you got it covered that's cool. I also wanted to let you know how great it would be if you could come by for breakfast, but if you don't want to I understand. I'm gonna go take my siblings home and hang out with them for a couple hours around 1 if you want to have some alone time. We can save you a plate, too.

Construction worker on the 5th floor of a building needed a handsaw. So he spots another worker on the ground floor and yells down to him, but he can't hear him. So the worker on the 5th floor tries sign language.

He pointed to his eye meaning "I", pointed to his knee meaning "need", then moved his hand back and forth in a hand saw motion. The man on the ground floor nods his head, pulls down his pants, whips out his chop and starts masturbating.

The worker on 5th floor gets so pissed off he runs down to the ground floor and says, "What the fuck is your problem!!! I said I needed a hand saw!".

The other guy says, "I knew that! I was just trying to tell you - I'm coming!"


:D

Eternally grateful this doesn't happen where I work. ;) My second job has been going ok. 2 weeks down, 4 to go... If everything goes all right anyway. The apartment is coming along nicely and I like that I only have to be on site Monday, Tuesday, and Friday. Jon is doing ok except for when he's crying like he's heartbroken that Meghan isn't there in the evening or on Easter Sunday. I got to meet Meghan's parents and her friend Trick. They're pretty awesome. It's cool she has such a good support system. Not much going on with me. Though I did beat up Ryan yesterday.

OH! BIG ACCOMPLISHMENT! I beat some Asian 12 year olds on Halo on Sunday! I was SO PUMPED! You know how hard it is to beat those kids? They like eat, sleep, and breathe Halo! GO ME!

Meghan

Hey beautiful. Anything sound good for lunch? Want some Starbucks pick me up? ;)

Ryan

Yesterday was fun. My ribs still ache, but I think it's more from laughing than from punching. ;) You blow off some steam?

[insert camera phone picture of birth certificate that says father: Joshua James Roberts]

WE GOT HIM BACK! JON'S HOME! AND NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE HIM FROM US AGAIN!

[private to close friends]
MY PIECE OF SHIT MOTHER CAN'T EVER TOUCH HIM!

Dammit all to hell. Do I EVER get to catch a break?Sigh.

So, several weeks ago I put in an application to officially adopt Jon. Apparently a single, 20 year old male with a job looks like a flake. So DCFS showed up and took him from me and brought him to Tia Maria's where the other kids are. They wouldn't even let me get a bag for him. They gave me this HUGE stack of legalese paperwork about an appointed lawyer since it's an interfamily adoption and I have an appeal hearing on the 20th. I'm only allowed the one chance to present my case in front of the judge. ( More details )

THE IMPORTANT PART

The lawyer said the only thing is the 4 judges that look at this are still not going to be happy about my age and status. Which is bullshit but whatever. He said I have until the 15th to gather as many sworn affidavit statements in regards to my character as I can. Stuff about how like I'm responsible, that I'm not just some kid messing around, that I've taken care of my siblings, the stuff I went through in high school. Stuff saying I'm not some 20 year old kid that goes out and parties and I CAN be a father and take care of him. All of him. So anyone wanting to do that let me know. She's writing an official statement requesting I have sole custody. She was granted legal guardianship of the other three which is good, I'm glad my mom can't get to them. This just... Wasn't supposed to happen.

Thanks for listening. And thanks in advance if you fill something out. I need all the help I can get here.

[PRIVATE - around 12:10 pm]

I AM SO PISSED! I HAVEN'T BEEN THIS PISSED IN YEARS! MOTHER FUCKING COCK SUCKING SON OF A BITCH TROLL! THAT LITTLE CHILD CAME UP TO MY FUCKING PLACE OF EMPLOYMENT, FOLLOWED ME IN THE STOCK ROOM AND THREW ME AGAINST THE MOTHER FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT WALL! I PUSHED BACK AND HE PINNED ME AND GAVE ME THIS BULLSHIT ABOUT HE LOVES HER AND HER HAPPINESS AND TOLD ME! ME! THAT HE WAS GOING TO BREAK EVERY BONE IN MY BODY AND LEAVE ME FOR DEAD IN A DITCH!!!!

ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? SON OF A BITCH! HE COULD HAVE LOST HIS CAREER BECAUSE HE WAS ON THE GOD DAMN SECURITY CAMERA AND THEN HOW'S HE GOING TO TAKE CARE OF HIS DAUGHTER! I GOT IN HIS FACE AND TOLD HIM THAT SECURITY SAVED HIS ASS AND IF HE EVER HURTS MEGHAN AGAIN OR LAYS HIS HANDS ON ME I'M GOING TO RAIN HELLFIRE ON HIS ASS AND HE'S GONNA CRAWL BACK AND KNOW EXACTLY WHO FUCKED HIM UP! STUPID COCK SUCKING MOTHER FUCKING LITTLE... NEED PUNCHING BAG!!! NOW!

[Blocked from Seth "my fucking face" Kane. Around 12:50]

So, Seth showed up at my work. Pushed me up against the wall. We fought a little, me pushing him off me like WTF and him pinning me back. Hard. He said he loved Meghan and if I hurt her he'd break every bone in my body and leave me in a ditch for dead yeah, that totally set me off. You don't spend 8 weeks in a hospital and have three surgeries after being attacked with a 2x4, having every bone in your chest broke, and come to with your over the garage apartment ON FIRE and NOT freak out about someone saying THAT. This didn't fly. From the moment he touched me I pushed him back. And I got in his face after he said his piece and told him Meghan can do what she wants and that if he ever hurts Meghan again or lays his hands on me I'll kick his ass and I won't leave him for dead. He'll know EXACTLY who did this to him.

He did say he could respect me for not backing down and he was sorry he called me a tool, but still... AT MY WORK! IN FRONT OF A SECURITY CAMERA! It was a cowardly thing to do, making it so I couldn't react he's lucky he did it at my work or he'd still be laid out. I could have lost my job. He could have gone to jail. Lost his scholarship and football career. Then how's he going to support his daughter? Shaking my damn head. Boy did NOT think this through. I mean he obviously assumed I'd just sit back and take it and be scared or something. But more than that, he could have lost everything. And I'm sure this doesn't win him any points in the proving he loves Meghan department either.

So after bloodying my knuckles on a punching bag for close to an hour, haven't been that angry since my stepdad was around, and talking to Meghan, Thomas gave me the rest of the day off. He wants me to press charges and I told him no. There's no reason Seth needs to get in trouble like that for making a bonehead move one time. And frankly I don't blame him entirely. Granted, I wouldn't have done at someone's work so they couldn't fight back, but he was just protecting his girls in his way. Shrug. I get it. Don't like it, but still.

I'm going to go chill with Jon and Meghan and Kandy. I'm a lot calmer now that I've worked it out and she talked to me. She's pissed. I wasn't going to tell her, but she was worried when Thomas called her to tell her I'd be late for lunch and had me talk to her all raging and angry. I told her she couldn't do anything about it because it's going to make me look like a pussy, and Seth backing off and walking away after I got up in his face, and saying he could respect me after what I did? Yeah, not a pussy. No one is going to mess with me like that, or the people I care about. You can take that to the bank.

After a crappy week, THIS totally cheered me up. Thanks Chrysta! You rock! Well, this and some other things involving a certain someone. *cough* Meghan *cough cough*



[MEGHAN]

Isn't this cool? She's so nice! I'm missing you and glad to see you soon. Lunch? We can discuss good places to hide bodies this weekend.

So. Happy.

Things have been stressful here, but great. Absolutely great. Jon's getting settled in and adjusted nicely. It helps that he's got awesome care during the day. Meghan has been watching him while I'm at work, which is great since he needs some stability and then I have an excuse to go over there every day. ;) Jokes aside, it's been great to get him on a routine, even if sometimes it's hard being a "dad," but it hasn't even been a month. I'm grateful he's here, and he's safe, and I kinda love him. He has my eyes, which is... weird. Shrug. It's been kind of cool how much he needs me, and I think I kinda need him, too.

Have I mentioned how awesome my girlfriend is? No? Well, let me tell you. She's pretty fantastic. I've been helping her out with baby stuff since she's watching Jon. Yesterday, since Jon eats baby food and I don't like that processed garbage stuff and Kandy's getting bigger, I got her a Beaba with the stuff to freeze the baby food you make. That thing is COOL! I'm excited! And glad she likes it.

It even LOOKS cute!


Things are going well. I have plans, I have my family, I have my amazing girlfriend that I can't get enough of. There's a lot more I have to say, but for once I'm not wanting to babble to the world. It's private. And magic. And something that's just between us. Uncorrupted. Untarnished. And I kinda like there's this whole, thing, going on behind the scenes that's really big and awesome and just for us.

I'm not sure where to start...

So, Meghan met my mom... Yeah... Not happy about that. We were watching a movie and she just showed up. Brought up a bunch of really horrible things in front of Meghan. Apparently my stepdad, Jon's father, is out of prison and she's going to be with him. She dumped Leslie, Tallie, and Mike at Tia Maria's house but she didn't want Jon, said he was too much work. So mom brought him here.

She dumped her kids and ran to be with some guy. THAT guy. The guy that drove me away in high school. That's the father of my baby brother. And I know I updated a few weeks ago about how I felt weird around him, how I don't feel as close to him and he cried way more than any of my other siblings and there's something about him being THAT guy's kid I just can't get over. But over Christmas, he could only fall asleep when I was holding him. He'd curl up in my arms like he needed me. Like he just wanted to be held and feel safe and he finally did. I had his crib in my room so I could keep an eye on him, make him feel comforted, and he just slept. I'd just have to touch him when he fussed and he calmed down. And Saturday, when I picked him up, he curled into me like that and I don't know how to explain it. I just knew that it would be ok? That he needed me? I don't know.

I took him to the pediatrician today to get a check-up since my mom told us she'd doped him with codeine and make sure everything is ok how can someone like her have a kid? She's a crack whore. He said it was all good. So we went shopping and got a bunch of stuff. I called Leslie and them to see if they were ok. Went by Tia Maria's to talk. So that's it.

I'm stressed. My nerves are kind of fried. I stayed up all night with him to make sure he was ok. My mom said she gave him something so I was worried. I'll never understand that woman. I mean she's my mom and I love her, but sometimes I just wish we were orphans. I don't know. You don't pick who you're born to. I've worked really hard to take care of my siblings, make sure they were ok and taken after because my mom wasn't really all there, but still. I've tried to separate myself from her. We don't talk. I don't go over there. I pick up my sisters and brothers and take them out of there on the weekends and stuff, and I'm still going to do that with Tia Maria, we talked about that already. My mom is a mess and it feels callous to say that, but she has a lot of problems, serious problems, and I'm not going to put me or anyone I care about in that situation. I'm not going to endanger anyone by being around her. And I've worked really hard to not become her and be better than this. And I really regret that Meghan had to be there see my mom acting the fool like that, but she's gone for a while now, the kids are safe, and I hope everything will turn out ok.

[Tiffani]
In other news, Meghan and I are now officially a couple. Thought you ought to know.

[Private to friends. NOT Meghan]

I know I joke around a lot and I'm a dork and all that, but this time I'm being serious. So I've been sitting on this post for a couple of weeks, trying to get my head wrapped around some things since I posted about Christmas and work and all that.

I like Meghan. A lot. I'm kinda scared with how much I like her since we've only been dating a couple of months. I know she has a kid and the kid has a dad, so I've been trying to hold myself back and not get attached.

But I can't.

I'd be lying if I said I didn't see and hope this was going somewhere. That I didn't have plans for the future. That I want to be with her and I like the way I feel when I'm with her. That I have feelings for her. I haven't been this happy in a long time.

But it scares me because there's this other guy I don't know that much about. And the last time I liked a girl was Tara the skank that cheated on me and made my life hell. We all know how that turned out when everything hit the fan in high school. I'm worried I'm going to get hurt again. And I know she likes me, I've told her a lot of things to sort of tell her I want to be serious and I really care about her but I haven't come straight out and said it yet. I don't know. Is it too early? What if she says no? What if I've blown this whole thing up in my head and she doesn't like me as much as I like her?

Someone help me out here. Please.

How was your new year internets? Mine was good. I watched the ball drop in NYC with my sister and brothers. Leslie went out to some party. She's a big girl and can take of herself I'm told. I worry about her, but it's ok. She knows if she needs me I'm here... I hope anyway.

Not much is going on with me right now. My siblings loved Christmas, and apparently they're going to have it here every year from now on. Sounds good to me. It was kind of fun waking up at the buttcrack of dawn because they were excited. It was a little surreal though. I mean I'm sitting in my recliner watching the paper fly and laughing as they're attacking each other with stuff and squealing. Made me think about the future a lot. It's no secret I want a family someday. With kids and their friends and everyone coming and going out of my house. It was weird to look at my siblings and see them smiling and playing like I was a proud papa or something. I mean I feel like their dad more than their brother usually, but I don't know how to explain it. It was nice.

Private to people that are really close to him and that he would trust. Tiffani, Alicia, Leslie (if she wouldn't tell mom), Meghan maybe IDK I think so but I don't know, etc.

So you all know I've been working at the pharmacy for 5 years, and when I started full-time Todd, the pharmacist, and his brother Thomas, the architect, made me do this investment portfolio thing. It was mostly for retirement stuff, but when we started looking at my monthly income versus my expenses I had a lot of leftovers so we tied it up in stocks and bonds because I don't want that money like lying around easy to get to. You never know, you know? And it's not like it's above some people I know to do something like that. You guys know who I'm talking about here. mom and stepdad of the week

Anyway, so I have this like savings, and Todd and Thomas and I were talking about money stuff. Investing and wealth. They said it must be nice to have a job like mine and no student loans or anything. They're always trying to get me to go to school, but I tell them I'd rather just learn what I want to know. I'm always reading some sort of science something and keeping up with the news. But we talk about money and the future a lot. And they were talking about wealth, a stable income to put their kids through college. There's a couple of apartment buildings that need renovations in downtown Atlanta. It would be a gold mine. It's right by Centennial Park so there would always be people there. We could pay people to do hard stuff and we could do some of the smaller stuff. The bank would do a loan to pay for a lot of it. And then we could rent the places out. They said if two apartments rent it'll pay the mortgage on the place. They already have a realtor company that would do all of the managing the property with the repairs, tenants issues, whatever. They'd do the mortgage and the bills on it and then send us out checks splitting up the income. It's a sweet deal, but it's risky. They wanted me because of the collateral I would add to the pot, my knowledge of like practical things since I do stuff like inventory and repairs now, and that they think it would be nice to help me out. We're buddies and they're like big brothers almost. I'm honored to be asked, but I don't know. It's a lot of money. It's a big deal. They said they'd write me out a contract so I could work part time at both places as a contractor for a month.

It sounds too good to be true.

What do you guys think? Should I go in on owning a couple of apartments? Insurance costs would go up, and if anything were to happen I'd be screwed. Plus I mean I love them but it feels dangerous to pool money like that. I don't know much about this. Any ideas?

[Meghan]
Hey sweetie. I'm thinking about you. How are you doing?

It's almost Christmas so I have from now until the 3rd off. Not sure what I'm going to do. Actually I am sure what I'm going to do. I'm watching my siblings. It's way less fun than I thought it was going to be. Well, parts of it are. Leslie is making me a little bit crazy wanting to go out. She has cabin fever. Rachel and Mike are having fun playing, they're 11 and 9 so it's a fun age. But Jonathan is only 9 months so it makes it kind of hard. I thought we were done with the diapers for a while, but I guess not. I'm trying to be there for him, be a good big brother, but I haven't lived at home for 3 years now and Jonathan is the kid of the guy Bill that sort of drove me away. I guess I'm a little bitter, I don't know. I'm trying to put that aside. This kid isn't him, isn't my mom, and didn't ask for any of this, but sometimes it's hard. Like it's a reminder. I dunno. Shrug.

We went and got a Christmas tree, Leslie picked out all the decorations for the most part, and they've been playing with that. I'm trying to get some Santa stuff together. It's kind of a big task with 4 kids. I just hope they like it.

And if I can get Leslie to stop playing "Moves Like Jagger" my brain might actually survive the holidays. LOL.

I got some gifts for Meghan before she left town. I really hope she likes them. I wish I could be spending some time with her over the break. I've been thinking about her a lot. It kind of scares me really. Well, really they were for her daughter.







I know. Cute, huh? I hope the kiddo likes them. :-) Well the crystal ornament is more for the tree, but you know what I mean.

Anyway, that's me lately. If anyone wants to hang out give me a call or text. Would love to have you over for Roberts family Christmas.

I know you've all been waiting with baited breath to hear from me. The holidays are looming and that can always be a stressful time with me and the family. Mom has been sort of mia so I'm giving Leslie a reprieve and helping with the kiddos. That new baby is a handful. Nine months old. Man that's a tough age. Guess he's going through a growth spurt and has been keeping everyone up. I talked to Todd, the pharmacist at Baker's and he gave some ideas to help him sleep. The girls were never this colicky. Any tips on this would be great. I mean I've dealt with babies a lot, but he is inconsolable. Probably just needs his mama.

My teets just don't do it for him. Ba doom Ching.

Oh come on you know you smiled or eye rolled or something.

Aside from the baby and the holidays increasing my work schedule some, though Todd insists on giving me ten days off for Christmas and not extending hours so much, it's nice to have weekends off, not much is up with me.

Haha I'm a liar.

I met this amazing girl. She is just... Indescribable. We have been talking and have seen each other a couple times. Hopefully I'll get to see her this weekend. So wish me luck because you all know how good I am at dorking things up. Haha. I like her though, and I think she likes me, or at least I hope so. We'll see where things take us. I'll keep you updated.

Peace out.